international run..

i think i am going to miss the international run on this sunday. my sis is away and i am lazy to drive from home to songkhla in the wee hours. the check-in time for mini-marathoners is 4.30 am, which means i have to leave home around 3 am. i need to be there in advance to look for a car park. surely, there is going to be a huge number of runners bc it's international. maybe, i will check out the time for fun-runners. the check-in time is a bit later. around 7.30 am, i guess. if the event was in PSU, i would not have any problem/hesitation doing it alone. i could sleep at my shop and join the event. it's not a long drive. but to leave home at 3 am, how my running form is going to be? it means i have to get up at least at 2.30 am, get ready and leave home before 3. it's more like a turtore. i don't think i will enjoy the long run if i am deprived of sleep..

maybe, i will do it next year instead..

a few days ago, i was toying with the idea of convincing my ex to do the run with me, seeing that we are on a good term now. he lives near the venue. but i was still not so sure. until this morning, when he showed up at my shop unannouced, i knew it was a mistake if i ask him to do the run with me. hell, it was a terrible surprise. seeing him, i felt my heart beat faster than usual.. i didn't expect him to show up like that and i was not happy for his showing up. i felt uncomfortable seeing him. since the breakup, i've not seen him in person, until this morning.. he came to use the service at my shop but i knew he came to check on me, to see how i am coping and how i am running my life.. i treated him as i did to other customers.. after i was done with him, i let him go without striking a conversation. later at lunch, he called me again, asking if i already had lunch, why my hair was so messy, why i didn't have it cut.. hell, i wanted to tell him. it's my head and it's none of his business.. but i just said i was too busy and then he hanged up sensing that i was not in the mood to talk to him.. shit, when this guy is going to really let me go??